Totally disappointed!!

Dear Lord, i was so suffering now!!..I believe U sure know better than others what situation i staying now,,U sure know what im thinking n what i want now!!!..Lord,i reli regret what i had did n what i had done!!!..U sure very sad y ur lovely son will so Weak and Totally cant fight with the ghost spirit n finaly let them Win!!.Im reli Sorry n So Shame....Lord,Pls 4give me what i had done b4..i know i reli did a very very very Bad Thing!!!..I Know I Cant Blame Anyone!!..Dear Lord, pls 4give me n her too,,Dear Lord,,Pls send angels stay beside her n owes teach her a right way n a right minded!!.Pls give me a new life n wonderfull life..I was so scare to stay in this kind of life..tats reli enuf for me...I dun wan it anymore My Lord!!..I was very tired n very weak n this time i reli 跌倒很厉害， My Lord!!...我真的后悔了， My Lord!!!...I WANT CHANGE!!! Lord,,Pls 在次用你的双手来把我重新的扶起来！.....I want a Different Life,,the Life that U Given!!!...Pls Owes 加倍的慈福给我和加添力量给我来奔跑前面的道路！！。。谢谢听我的祷告，奉主耶稣命求得。阿们！！！